Take A Breather

اَلأَنَاةُ مِنَ اللهِ وَ الْعُجْلَةُ مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ

Calmness is from Allah and haste is from shaytaan

Okay! The past week had me whirled away in a depressing typhoon.
Well, it was the week when most scholarships had their deadlines,(ofc, like clockwork!)
it was also when I realized I wasn't eligible for any routes I had in mind,
and most of my friends are already advancing in life, however and whatsoever!
Truth be told, despite the calm (read: blur) exterior,
I'm most definitely an impatient person
Ya Allah, sangat!

Ofc, being patient doesn't only apply at handling anger,
It also plays along the lines of being patient with the flow of time,
meaning, not rushing into things due to a burst of impulse
If acting on impulse is a norm for teens ,
then I guess the only way to maturity is to finally get rid of that.

As of now though,
I like things to be done in an instant, ignoring the times when it'll drag my schedule
messing up any other plans that are underway
This just might be that one mistake i keep on repeating without realizing

Being all panicky has its pros and cons, indefinitely
Sure, rush to make salah, not when you're in the middle of it!

When you want something good to happen, you can't just dua' for it with minimum effort,
with your head hastily going up and up in the clouds, deliriously fantasizing it
when your own body is left idle on the ground
empty, unkept and forgotten

When stuck in a suffocating situation,
and in order to fight it,
I personally think its alright to let hell break loose for a while
I just experienced this just now tbh,
(Ofc, take wudhu' first!)
to make things less embarrassing, in short,
I was fighting myself,
crying whilst my hands reached for progress.
I didn't stop, even when my innards are yelling frantically,
Doors were slammed, Heavy feet continued to trudge onwards instead of flailing towards bed.
I actually went through with it all, instead of turning into a crying statue.
Alhamdulillah, I'm calm at the moment bcs of that.

No wonder Allah is with the patient.
I definitely have no idea how hard it is for others in a far worse situation.
Hang in there, fren!!!

Breathe a little,
empty your mind and start thinking for a while
before jumping into drastic conclusions.
He was, is and will always be the best planner for you, after all
Have some faith.
...
Some? Ha, lets be real.
Everyone knows that some isn't enough :)


Oh, and here's a comment I bumped into somewhere;

With the elements of impatience and haste, we only encounter failures, misery, pain, and by its consequences our hearts become faithless…we feel uncomfortable in sufferance.

And, with patience, life becomes more beauteous!!! Because, patience is a modest silence, a communicating spirit, a power luminous. In the progress of the soul, patience is an experience sublime