How Will You Bloom?
Alhamdulillah, I got 8As and 1B+. You might think that its not much coming from a student who'd spent her 5 years in seri puteri. To that, I say 'meh, go away'. Some might cry over a near miss, while some would feel tremendously blessed, really! And although I was beyond grateful that day, there's a reason to why it took me a month to finally be able to tell people about it with a genuine smile.
I remember on the way to school during results day, I told babak; "Akak aim 5 je," aaand yeah, I purposely left the statement hanging, as an attempt to nudge a reply from him. Babak smiled, and only reminded me to thank Allah if I managed received more. (Alhamdulillah!) I did, and I was somewhat relieved I didn't receive more than that. Because 1. MY HARDWORK WONT BE ABLE TO PAY FOR IT HAHAHA 2. I'd risk being too happy that I'd forget about those below me, and forget not to trigger their sadness be it with subtle anythings.
Katakanlah there are still some people out there moping about what's happened, ah don't worry. I'm not going to tell you things will be alright. Also a self reminder, just, don't be too harsh on yourself and please, please take good care of your 'ibadah and not to forget, your own well-being! Honestly, I've still haven't fully recovered from disappointing the folks at school but umm yeah, time will heal, InshaAllah.
To any of my batchmates yang tgh baca this sappy entry, haha well, its too bad the tables turned for us. Too bad everyone was expecting so much from us even when we know ourselves better as meh, beshe beshe je. From being in the top-5 rank only to tumble down to the 12th was wHOA, what a backward leap! But all is well in the end. Why? Because I believe Allah is just. Al- 'Adl. He who guarantees the best only for the ones He deems best. And it was best for us to step down during one of the most triumphant times of all. That sudden smack of realization which indicated that we've still a long way to go.
Think about it. (ok this is generally for everyone)
There's adab dengan almost everthing to perfect, relationships with Allah & the ummah to hold on to & a dash of istiqamah to make sure everyday only gets better,, all these essential things- we had to learn the hard way. Only after achieving all that, would we be able to tell ourselves, the flower that blooms in adversity really is the rarest and most beautiful of all (ECEHH) . Oh and the time doesn't have to come at a certain age. Its whenever He deems right for you. When you yourself know, that you've really given your all.
فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا - 94:5
For indeed, with hardship [will be] ease.
Not only have I underlined it, its also highlighted to show us an important thing to note here in Surah Al- Insyirah.( MashaAllah, Allah has even repeated the ayat twice in the same surah!) Apparently, ease has always been there, alongside hardship! If only we're willing to search for the hikmah for all that has happened. Quit punishing yourself and pick that longlai body up! Bi iznillah, rock bottom is the best foundation to shoot ourselves back up there.
I mean, imagine yourself at the bottom of a pool. Ha, ain't it easy to rocket yrself to the surface from there... Ah, I hope I made myself clear hehe, was never good explaining tings ._.
A part of the lively 166 who made me who I am today <3 p="">
xx,
houra!
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