April So Far
مَنْ لا يَرحم لا يُرحم
Those who do not love others, will not be loved.
(Hadith narrated by Muslim)
Qaisarah is turning 11 in the next two months. She's still the same old sensitive kind who'd cry silently and reply "Sa pun tak tahu kenapa," whenever you ask her about it. She still likes to copy everything I do, mostly in terms of watching anime (which I strongly regret) and binge-watch them from dawn to dusk! And neither her japanese or understanding of any hidden moral values in them are increasing ._. However, it cools my eyes to see her being all kiasu over her hw just to get ahead of me at something.
A'shadieeyah recently turned 6 on March. She has the same body-clock as mine, as we both get weights under our eyelids as soon as Maghrib closes the curtains for the day. Despite that, she gets up late, rarely bathes in fear for her throwing a tantrum, and gets to feast her eyes on videos of toy unboxings-first thing in the morning. No one had the time to support her learn how to read and speak as much as how a first-born would have the luxury of.
It's not fair for me to just sit by idly.
What was I doing all these years? 5 years of boarding school should'nt have been able to cause such gap between us. I've clearly been self-absorbent to the point that I'm not able to takeover mummy's vital role at home due to her busy work schedule. THIS HOUSE NEEDS A 2ND MOM! And to whom else would others set eyes on if it ain't me? :>
And so the list goes on- as a 2nd mom, I'm expected to keep home spick and span, all 19 neko-chans catered to their needs, meals beside nasi telur kicap and spaghetti to please (read: surprise) hungry baby birds, and so much more, lillahitaala of course.
If there ever is a time when I feel discouraged, I'd have that picture up there to remind me how others have it way worse, yet still be able to trudge onwards in life- all smiles. They're three sisters living in an old traditional house. They've age gaps similar to my sisters and I. Mother? Passed on. Father? Married to another woman before abandoning the family. The eldest sister Akari had three jobs, including taking care of school bills and raising up the family. When advising her sisters, she'd rack her head for the wisdom her mother never had the chance to pass on directly towards them.
But I'm plenty sure there are far more challenging lives out there compared to this fictional anime, AND I RESPECT THE STRENGTH ALLAH HAS GIVEN YALL! -with a burning passion too! InshaAllah, May we forever make dua's for each other because hey, thats where the ummah lends its strength from; the dua' from a 'ghaib' brother or sister. Verily Allah is Ar-Rahim and always there to shower us with His love, if only we'd just ask.
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