Qualms & Serenity;

a small insight to Al-Jahiz's infamous 'Kitab Al- Hayawan' وَإِذْ يَمْكُرُ بِكَ الَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا لِيُثْبِتُوكَ أَوْ يَقْتُلُوكَ أَوْ يُخْرِجُوكَ ۚ وَيَمْكُرُونَ وَيَمْكُرُ اللَّهُ ۖ وَاللَّهُ خَيْرُ الْمَاكِرِينَ - 8:30 And [remember, O Muhammad], when those who disbelieved plotted against you to restrain you or kill you or evict you [from Makkah]. But they plan, and Allah plans. And Allah is the best of planners. Driven people have always captivated me.  Its as if they have only the most crucial thing I've lost- the uncanny ability to be enduring and ikhlas whilst pursuing their purposes in life. Its mesmerizing how that sincerity can actually be seen through that small spark in their eyes whenever they get into the zone. I haven't a purpose to begin with. You know, that controlling mindset I should be waking up to every morning, which ensures I get out of bed with a jolt of enthusiasm? Well, at least, not just yet.  Hmm, suppose individual...

Between you and the ones around you, who comes first? For some people, its a given that youre someone who tends to give out more possibly because of the fact that youre so used to having your possessions torn away from you, regardless of it being by your younger siblings or whatever the cause it may be .And who knows whether you expect nothing or a ten-fold reward in return, well, that depends on the individual himself. You might claim yourself to be someone selfless, altruistic, ignorant of how youre being treated, asalkan dia bahagia .  Seriously?  Hmm, you know what, I'm starting to think that it sounds a bit strange. Yet, once taunted with the mere thought that all youre doing only leaves an empty spot in your heart, despite acknowledging the subtle wave of  pleasure you get upon seeing someone else beam because of you, you'll might start to console yourself with this hadith; The Prophet  salallahu ‘alayhi wa sallam  said:  None of ...