Qualms & Serenity;

   Save your breath. I'll tell you myself.    Alhamdulillah, I got 8As and 1B+. You might think that its not much coming from a student who'd spent her 5 years in seri puteri. To that, I say 'meh, go away'. Some might cry over a near miss, while some would feel tremendously blessed, really! And although I was beyond grateful that day, there's a reason to why it took me a month to finally be able to tell people about it with a genuine smile.    I remember on the way to school during results day, I told babak; "Akak aim 5 je," aaand yeah, I purposely left the statement hanging, as an attempt to nudge a reply from him. Babak smiled, and only reminded me to thank Allah if I managed received more. (Alhamdulillah!)  I did, and I was somewhat relieved I didn't receive more than that. Because 1. MY HARDWORK WONT BE ABLE TO PAY FOR IT HAHAHA 2. I'd risk being too happy that I'd forget about those below me, and forget not to trigger their sadness ...

   مَنْ لا يَرحم لا يُرحم Those who do not love others, will not be loved. (Hadith narrated by Muslim)      April somehow has been my most challenging yet fruitful month yet, post the big exam,. I had to juggle time between madrasah classes which I need to attend to more proactively as the lessons get tougher to digest, driving classes to drag myself into, and above all, giving my all towards making home a better place- starting with mending the bond between us three sisters.      Qaisarah is turning 11 in the next two months. She's still the same old sensitive kind who'd cry silently and reply "Sa pun tak tahu kenapa," whenever you ask her about it. She still likes to copy everything  I do, mostly in terms of watching anime (which I strongly regret) and binge-watch them from dawn to dusk! And neither her japanese or understanding of any hidden moral values in them are increasing ._. However, it cools my eyes to see her bei...

اَلأَنَاةُ مِنَ اللهِ وَ الْعُجْلَةُ مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ Calmness is from Allah and haste is from shaytaan Okay! The past week had me whirled away in a depressing typhoon. Well, it was the week when most scholarships had their deadlines,(ofc, like clockwork!) it was also when I realized I wasn't eligible for any routes I had in mind, and most of my friends are already advancing in life, however and whatsoever! Truth be told, despite the calm (read: blur) exterior, I'm most definitely an impatient person Ya Allah, sangat! Ofc, being patient doesn't only apply at handling anger, It also plays along the lines of being patient with the flow of time, meaning, not rushing into things due to a burst of impulse If acting on impulse is a norm for teens , then I guess the only way to maturity is to finally get rid of that. As of now though, I like things to be done in an instant, ignoring the times when it'll drag my schedule messing up any ot...