Being Fair

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*clears throat*
^ haha perlu ke?
   
     Salam people!
     Am back from school and well alive - (hinting that ive went through hell and back with SPM trials done and over with) To cut the drama short, despite all the hardcore last-minute studying, trying to wake up at four and failing miserably; the whole three-weeks exam wasn't satisfying at all. Hopefully by the end of this post, it'll be so much easier for me anchor myself to the ground and accept the fact that I'm still miles away from receiving a slip with *explosion sfx* results.

Lets get real la
     If you're still struggling hard to extract ayat" berbunga for karangan, still can't decide whether youre better at argumentative or descriptive essays, still saying "asalkan tak fail" for addmaths, still cramming 40+ subtopics the night before exam for pai and seje, and still hasn't get an A for your science electives throughout the year,

Then you're definitely still in the clouds;
oblivious of all the awaiting calamity set in stone

That is, unless you do sth of course

Lookie here dear self,
(and others who tend to struggle under the same fate), its high time for immense sacrifices but primarily, its about time for us to be fair towards ourselves. Ta-da! What, did you really think I was about to rant abt beauty being subjective and whatnot?....I guess that could wait. Anyways, from my perspective and many others, being fair means to put things in their respectful places, places where they should be, careful not to disrupt the whole circle of life. From here onwards, you can start imagining (yes, imagine!) your teacher's bebelan ; "Masa belajar, belajar! Masa main, mainlah" Hey, it really is deep once you put your mind to it. Try telling me how there are some students out there who tend to excel in everything they do, be it on stage- giving out a speech, on the tracks- winning a gold medal or even going overseas to win an award for innovation. All coming from the very same person.

Oh, and lets put the alasan "She's gifted, bolehla" aside.
I strongly hold on to the saying that propagates the fact that hardwork beats talent, personally because I've been there, from a worthless coward to a 'bolehla' debater, and also from a jack of all trades kind of student in elementary to a crawling amputated one in her high school. *whao where am i going with this again?* The point is, that if things aren't going as smooth as you hoped for, then sth must have gone wrong with yourself. It can be in various aspects, but Im pretty sure mine is derived from whats in my heart. Spiritually and mentally, Im currently struggling hard to stay stagnant and as a bearer of the name which means 'Angel of Justice' (i know, pretty rad, huh? Alhamdulillah hihi), it is a heavier burden for me to prove what good doing justice to oneself will bring in the end :)

Towards a being better person inside out,
capable of bringing down all hell thats sent in her way,
silencing the harsh inner critic,
and achieving all good thats written for her in both worlds, 
Lillahi Taala

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