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Familiarity breeds contempt.
Don't you ever forget.
It will be the one that dulls your attempts
Unless, youre not afraid of resets

So I recently started to get the hang of this one habit.
Day 26/40 *pats back* (kenot biliv time flies soo fast)
; to read Al-Mulk every single day, preferably after Maghrib 
and ofc by hook or by crook - before sleep 

It was a nightly routine back in high school,
as how most boarding schools would make it so.
I lost it, but I'm tryna get back there and Alhamdulillah,
now I'm able to recite the verses straight after wirid, 
by myself

So as I was reciting the verses just now, 
I was sitting on my sejadah facing forward,
got a little sleepy, so I buried my head in my arms on the bedside
sambil tu still baca al-Mulk all the same

Suddenly I  reached the last ayat already.
Eh.
That fast? Dah habis dah? 

Guilt started to overwhelm me 
I wasn't careful, 
this wasn't supposed to happen,
I wasn't supposed to feel nothing. 

I needed to get the depth back
I need to constantly ask myself,

-why?





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