Bless The Givers

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"With the beautiful names of God, there are names that must always be mentioned together. And the name “Al-Mu’ti” (The Giver) is no exception as God is “The Giver – The Preventer”, Who prohibits in order to give, takes in order to give and lowers in order to raise." **


     Its only 6.15 PM, yet for some reason, the weather outside is already dark with grey clouds lurking on everyone who's currently out for sports this evening. Despite the gloomy evening today is, the first day of sem 2 was not as bad as I expected. Being the worrywart I naturally am, I was tremendously anxious of what will happen earlier in the day. It has certainly been a while since I interacted with peers hence, the awkwardness. I'm pretty sure I wasn't the only one as I felt the tension and pressure rising in class from the start (since we all just got our sem 1 pointers 2 days back). To my awe, most of them were brilliant at hiding their emotions. Man, I wish it was easy to strike a poker face. 

I didn't talk much, any eye contact was immediately detached,and  my phone probably got annoyed at how I frequently locked and unlocked it throughout the first hours of kuliah. I even got flustered when talking to girls, boys apa tah lagi? Pointers start to reveal themselves and 3 of my classmates who got 4.0 were all aiming for the same degree course I'm setting eyes on. A pang of jealousy swept over.  As comparisons began to run amok inside my head, I started to lose myself in the whispers of the accursed.

And that's when the givers saved my day.

I have been blessed by Allah with the company of 5 different people today, whom with their small gestures, have left a positive impact on me to carry throughout the semester, inshaAllah :)

One, the special close friends from other unis who messaged me well wishes earlier today (yesterday ada juga!) in conjunction with me encountering the first day. It softens me to know just how thoughtful they are of others and inspire me to make plenty of beautiful duas for random people as well. This helped me smile all the way to class this morning, despite being a tad tardy.

Two, my beloved CF gang in kuliah 14 who'd always try to pick up on my distress radar and immediately give advice promptly. Their's are the only hands I'd reach out to squeeze while I listen to their tegurans, no matter how hurtful the constructive feedback can get.  Ayuni said, in duniawi matters, always remember to look at those below you. For ukhrawi matters pula, compare to those far above you. Syukur, houris! This helped me get over my pointer insecurity.

Three, Ms Aina, my previous physics lecturer. I met her by chance and she immediately smiled and told me just how happy she was to mark my finals paper. She insisted that I have improved greatly at the one subject I seem to fail so miserably at first. I hesitated, yet exchanged hugs with her anyway. Her sincerity and passion was what drove me that far, I guess. This helped me realize not to doubt my own capabilities.

Four, a friend who recently came back from Japan. As promised, he gave me leaves he collected himself at Fukuoka with three of them being maple, and one from a sakura tree! It probably meant nothing to him, though for me, it made me realize that hey, I don't really have to befriend a lot of people to blend in the crowd. Just the quality ones yg sekepala would be enough. Also, made me less afraid of guys.

beautiful, aren't they?

Fifth, my own mother, haha. Who knew a random call which only lasted for two minutes was all it took for me to miss home so bad. I miss home now. SO MUCH IT HURTS. Drama aside, the call peeled my eyes to reinstate those who should truly belong in remembrance. Not them (blame culture shock) crushes nor the fictional anime characters , but them, the ones who have always been there for so long, I started taking them for granted when I am least aware.

Thats all! Ooh, loving all the impact I received today, Alhamdulillah, Ya Rabb
Let us all strive to be givers for the ummah from now on
Besides, tangan yang memberi lebih baik daripada tangan yang menerima, bukan?
InshaAllah

 **stripped from an insightful post from;
 http://muslimsincalgary.ca/allahs-name-the-giver/

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