Qualms & Serenity;

a small insight to Al-Jahiz's infamous 'Kitab Al- Hayawan' وَإِذْ يَمْكُرُ بِكَ الَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا لِيُثْبِتُوكَ أَوْ يَقْتُلُوكَ أَوْ يُخْرِجُوكَ ۚ وَيَمْكُرُونَ وَيَمْكُرُ اللَّهُ ۖ وَاللَّهُ خَيْرُ الْمَاكِرِينَ - 8:30 And [remember, O Muhammad], when those who disbelieved plotted against you to restrain you or kill you or evict you [from Makkah]. But they plan, and Allah plans. And Allah is the best of planners. Driven people have always captivated me.  Its as if they have only the most crucial thing I've lost- the uncanny ability to be enduring and ikhlas whilst pursuing their purposes in life. Its mesmerizing how that sincerity can actually be seen through that small spark in their eyes whenever they get into the zone. I haven't a purpose to begin with. You know, that controlling mindset I should be waking up to every morning, which ensures I get out of bed with a jolt of enthusiasm? Well, at least, not just yet.  Hmm, suppose individual...

From where I am right now, 18 and still mentally untact,  it may be true that I've yet to know just how surreal it feels like to hold my own child in my arms. If we're on the same boat, then you might not know either. Whether you'd cry or become speechless or never getting the whole experience at all. Wallahu A'lam, kan? That sure feeling though, the feeling of overwhelming love that envelopes both mother and child, those pure aspirations she set on her children the second she sees you out into the world for the very first time. At that time, I prefer to think that most mothers would never have it in their heart to immediately hope for us to become veterinarians, soldiers on the front lines, avenger of all her previous problems. No In her eyes, we were already special. Just for being born to this beautiful world. Such beautiful souls Allah has created for us- mothers No wonder the saying goes ' Allah's pleasure in in the pleasure of your parents...

dikpina and her friend houra, otw to the library يَا مُقَلِّبَ القُلُوْبِ ثَبِّتْ قَلْبِيْ عَلٰى دِيْنِكَ Oh transformer of the hearts! Make my heart steadfast on your Deen.  Looks like i can't seem to completely ditch this blog, haha Hey there! She's back! Today's post is going to be a blend of everything (hmmz what's new?), but inshaAllah, primarily focused on the idea of steadfastness! (Says the girl who still has self-grounding issues heheee) Firstly, allow me to reinstate my love (read: need) of writing blogposts. Though it all started as -well im not sure why, but my aunt, Ann was the original founder of this blog back in 2008. She randomly shoved a 'sign up to blogger screen' out of nowhere,,  and I've been back-to-back (on random intervals honestly) posting entries ever since. As I grew to become more of a difficult teenager, I tend to seek for support, reassurance or guilty pleasures in all kinds of form just to push my troubl...