Qualms & Serenity;

Why can't we ask from Allah like a two year-old?

Don't you think that it is awfully tiring to meet up to other people's expectations? She's smarter, prettier, taller or whatnot Why don't you try to be more like a flower?  Because a flower does not think of competing with the flower next to it, It just blooms .

I'm pretty sure my life was not as chaotic as it is right now My locker used to be neater, I used to be a morning person, I used to find it hard to sleep in class, I used to smile a lot, I used to have time to do the laundry, Homework has never made it into mountains, And I never had to care about having problems with seniors (over silly stuffs pulak tu) I mean like,   why should I even cover my hair in front of you people !? (I'm in a girls school btw) ^ The fact that I'm already a  F4 and that problem has been (and still) bugging me since F1 ugh. But what disgusts me the most is that; My heart has never been this hard before. Ha. There you have it Thats probably the source of it all Tepuk dada tanya iman, ya You know what your faults are So I hope you know what to do to ; heal your sick  心. *  心  (Japanese; Kokoro) means "heart; mind; mentality; emotions; feelings"

Just so you know, I'm very fond of cats. I've got 27 of them at home actually. And each and every one of them has their own 'kerenah' This certain cat  (given name - Itik) at school however  is by far the quirkiest cat I've ever come across.    ☼.☼ "Itik! Sini Itik sini!" I could see her at Bay 2's towel rack doing something I'm not sure of. We've been close since last year - Itik and I (ceh) Its refreshing to see that old mangy cat still alive haha And so I called for her again. Several form ones looked here and there  (yep, them as budak dorm and me, a senior dorm, ha!) Some were only staring hard at me as though I'm hallucinating but nO!  To prove to them that I'm completely sane, I hastily made my way to Itik and  embraced her into a warm hug :) But then I realized something under the towel rack  (!!!) A dead sparrow with its intestines sprawled out! Ookay. A gift. Right. ...

 Eat clean. Exercise.  Go outside more. Read more Quran.  Increase your prayers. Increase your dikhr.  Help anyone you can.  This is a happy life. Well, its about time i share something benficial Note to self #3!

Meh. The whole house currently reeks of smoke And who's to blame? Well, as the saying goes; "Kalau kita tuding jari kat orang lain, 4 lagi jari tunjuk balik kat kita" Besides, we shouldn't be blaming others without blaming ourselves first, right? Soo yeah. Kak long is here to be blamed at ಥ_ಥ It all started back when I was joyfully eating my 'imaginary ramen' with chopsticks ! hohoho When suddenly two little ayakashis came inside me bedroom  with googly eyes on their faces while chanting "oishii! oishii!" ((ok well thats a bit exaggerated but you get idea)) "Houriss, nak sikit!" "..Tak boleh" "Buatkan maggi boleh?" "Buatlah sendiri! Senang je kan?" "Hmm okay! Guna oven kan?" "Oven? Mana ada orang buat maggi guna oven!" "OK!" And with just that, Sarah and A'shadieeyah scurried downstairs giggling whereas I'm back to w...

I'm baaack! And for a long time too. Its the year-end holiday, after all. 私はとても幸せだ ! (I'm so happy!) Ha. Notice the japanese usage?  Well, don't blame me for getting a tad bit obsessed with such kawaii animes! This obsession kinda started way back when i was in elementary school when i didn't have much friends who were into this kind of 'art'. But here in ssp, kyaa! Its feels great to know that youre not the only one! Besides, whats wrong with learning a new language? Although i did just copy-pasted it from google translate, its worth a shot at tryna learn japanese, right? um, heheh Although there are a lot of moral values coming from animes (yes, i'm telling the truth!) ((From decent animes lah))  But still Do keep a rift between what's important and whats not, Houris. You should really focus more on the ukhrawi, not duniawi :) There you go! That's a Note to Self #1 Man, better not let arabic slip out of my head ...